I didn't want that for my daughter, and I thought that maybe pageants would be a good way to build her self-confidence. I went as far looking into a few local events. For those who know me in real life, that is the antithesis of who I am. But for my daughter I thought I might be able to keep the gagging to myself, and encourage her to be the social butterfly I never was.
|Because this a not-scary-at-all picture of well-adjusted little girl. (Photo courtesy of yooand.com)|
|Yeah, I'm kind of famous.|
|Unless it looks like this. Then she's fair game.|
So I quit. It was doing more harm than good. I'd leave each job feeling more insecure than I felt when I went in. I debated it for awhile...money is good. Especially when my hourly pay was triple anything I'd ever made at any other job. But the stress and anxiety and doubt wasn't worth it. And what would a pageant do? Expose a child to the same kind of anxiety and self-doubt. Those little girls can put on a good front, but inside, every time they don't win, they're doing an internal inventory on every tiny thing they think could be wrong with them. That's not healthy.
My daughter will never be in a pageant. It doesn't matter if she's not a social butterfly. Or class president. And so what if she dresses like Punky Brewster? She's awesome.